Hello beautiful people!
I’m writing you all to share that I’m finally coming back to work part time after an extended maternity leave. I told everyone it would be 4-6 months, and now here I am 16 months later. :) The parents out there may not be surprised. Birthing a child and caring for a baby knocked my socks right off! I’ve still lost them completely. Purchasing new socks soon for brand new feet because honestly, I feel like a different person than when I last wrote to you all.
My family spent some time deep in the underworld with a colicky baby boy. Consistent sleep was no where to be found and we met new parts of ourselves as we had zero time for self care.
Something remarkable emerged from the underworld though. A new mom friend recently said to me, “You don’t lose yourself to Motherhood. You lose yourself through it.”
Wise words.
I have lost myself (and those darn socks) through motherhood. There’s no doubt about it. However, I ponder the teachings of the sages of old who have shared that if it can be lost, it’s not the deepest truth of who you are.
Sometimes losing yourself is the most excruciating, and most direct, way of finding your Self in a whole new way. I don’t pretend to have the whole narrative worked out for you all yet. Perhaps I never will. It may look more like sharing pieces and parts in newsletters to come about the letting go and deeper embodiment of my transition to motherhood.
For now, I’ll share that the statement, “I AM the Mother” has been a profound and life giving force in my life. My heart has opened in transformative ways, and I feel more love than I ever have. I feel like the generator and creator of that love— physically, all the way down to my toes. Knowing that I am the embodiment of the Divine Mother for my son has given me greater access to faith than I’ve ever had before. I am the reminder of the unconditional love of the universe. I am the knowing that everything will be okay. I am the embrace to my son, and others, that goodness reigns in the world and the Light will always return.
I want my son to feel this truth through me. Thus, I must know it within myself and share it with those that cross my path.
Of course, I still get to be human. Ha! Motherhood is exhausting, frustrating, devastating, hilarious, and glorious all in one moment.
I share this with you amazing beings because I want you to know that I’m returning to work in a greater fullness than I’ve had before. I’m even more of ME, whatever that means on a given day. I sincerely wish for this to be of deep service and presence to every one of you.
I cannot wait to hear everything that has been happening in your lives!!! I’ve done a few sessions for clients already and it makes my heart sing. I’ve missed you all so much! I adore witnessing the twists and turns of your life stories. I feel so honored to be a space and a guide for whatever is unfolding for you.
Our sessions certainly don’t need to be about mothering or parenthood either! The scope of my practice hasn’t changed. We will still cover whatever is arising in your life, from relationship to career to health to spiritual development. I simply will be bringing a newly birthed version of my Self that will be able to meet you in more profound and loving ways.
My website is now updated if you want to hop on and book a session time. I’m raising my prices slightly, but I hope to remain accessible to people in all economic stages of life. If the calendar times don’t work for you, send me a message and we’ll try to work something out.
To close, I’ll share about our son, Reed. WE LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!! He is bright, energetic, deeply feeling, verbally expressive, passionate, creative, physical, and constantly surprising us. We call him our dragon. He is wild and of the Earth. We are so grateful.
Sending big love to every one of you with whatever is arising for you in this moment. Know that you are incredible and have access to all the power you could desire. I hope we can meet soon and connect in real time!
Love and blessings,
Kelley